Sometimes, I sit down at the computer and words just pour out of me. There is no struggle about what I should share because I have already gone through it about a thousand times in my head! I write, and somehow my head is less cluttered and my heart feels more settled.
Other times, I sit down at my desk and tap on the keys but no words are formed. My hands just hover lightly, as if they know they should be typing, but that there is some disconnect between my brain and the tips of my fingers. I get a kind of antsy-ness. I don’t want to force anything out that shouldn’t be shared just yet, but somehow I have this feeling that I need to say SOMETHING; if I could just figure out what exactly it is!
I’m pretty sure that this post is gonna be like that last thing I said up there!
Things seem to be a little quiet. Which, has to be a theme or something I need to get comfortable with, because when I looked back at the last thing I wrote (about three weeks ago), I felt the same way.
Sure, I could tell you about my latest teenager drama. I could write about the falling leaves, or the wind and rain. I could probably even tell you some of the things I’ve discovered about my relationships/friendships/parenting philosophies, and how these things relate to how I see God. But, I just can’t seem to get any of it to make sense in black and white.
So, I am going to choose happy this week because it’s okay to be quiet. Sometimes we just need to listen. To just sit quiet and let the words stay in our hearts a little longer. It’s okay to be still. To let Him make sense of what seems to make none. Let Him be the one who perfects the timing. Let Him be the one who speaks just the right words at just the right time.
God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits, to the woman who diligently seeks. Its a good thing to quietly hope, quietly hope for help from God.
Lamentations 3:25-26 (MSG)